One Day I’m Going to Die and There is Nothing I Can Do About It!

Excerpt from

Email Questions to a Near Death Experiencer (ebook)

by Diane Goble

 

Dear Diane

I am writing to you for some help as I am going through a very distressing and difficult time in my life at present. I am 27 years old and since 1991 have suffered Panic Attacks and bouts of severe Anxiety. I had my first panic attack a week after a very close and lovely Uncle died of cancer very suddenly. I consider myself very knowledgeable on the subject of Anxiety and have read many books etc. I have also had much counselling and other people have always thought that my attacks have stemmed from my Uncle's death although I have never been sure.

Over the last six months I have been feeling increasingly panicky and have had several severe attacks that have been utterly petrifying but more disturbingly to me for the first time I have been consiously panicking about the fact that ONE DAY I AM GOING TO DIE AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT!

Again my reaction to this has been to delve for information in books, on the net, ask questions and to look for reasons as to why this is happening to me now? I have just had 3 deaths in the family again, an Uncle, my Grandad and a close friend so maybe it has envoked stuff in me again but I am so terrified.

I feel so alone, I look at other people and wonder how they can walk around enjoying life without living in fear of death. The large panic attacks I have experienced are aweful, I feel like I am on the edge of a gaping black chasm about to be swept into nothingness forever. I get surges of fear so great that I feel that grotesque horror is about to sweep me away into madness. I sit there having an attack thinking "You are having a PA, you are not going to die" and then I add 2nd fear by then thinking "But you COULD die right this minute....." and then I think but one day I will die and I can't stop it.

I don't even know what I am scared of exactly but I am not enjoying my life at all at the moment and live with this constant petrifying, paralyzing fear. Sorry to have gone on and on, any help/thoughts/advice would be greatly appreciated. Do you think I am going mad?

Regards, Sandie

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Dear Sandie,

Panic attacks are often triggered by the death of someone close to us because it makes death a reality we have to face but don't want to. Most people have repressed their fear of death and even though they may look like they live without fear of death, there is an underlying anxiety about it. Then somebody close to them dies, and they experience full-blown panic attacks because they can't deny it any more.

Let me give you a different perspective to consider. Panic attacks are insistent messages from our soul to get us to wake up and recognize our true nature. Often times during our lifetime, our soul tries to get our attention but our ego, which fears annihilation, does all it can to keep us from even realizing that there is more to us than we've been led to believe. When we continually miss opportunities to recognize our spiritual nature, the attempts by our soul to get our attention become stronger. The death of someone close to us is an opportunity for us to realize that death only refers to death of the body, not of the personality that wore the body during its lifetime on earth. But we again miss this opportunity by declaring our loved one dead and gone. At this point the soul becomes more urgent and shows us what we fear, in your case "the edge of a gaping black chasm about to be swept into nothingness forever. I get surges of fear so great that I feel that grotesque horror is about to sweep me away into madness." But then the "panic attack" subsides and you realize that didn't happen, and you are still walking around breathing. And rest assured that no one has ever died from a panic attack. What your soul is telling you is that there is no death and there is nothing to fear.

It's true that we are all going to die someday but we choose to believe that that's a bad thing, usually because that's what we've been told. But if we chose instead to believe that death is a beautiful experience for the person making the transition back to their spiritual home, we can celebrate their crossing over and help them reach the light more quickly, and feel their joy over our own sorrow at the loss of their physical presence. Of course there is sorrow that they will no longer be with us in their physical body, but there is joy in knowing they are healthy and happy, that they are still part of our lives watching over us from the other side and that we will be with them again when it is our turn to make our transition from the physical to the spiritual world.

Peace & Joy!

Diane

© 2008 Diane Goble